Cast Your Net, Part 2

For the past two weeks, I’ve been doing endless research on cameras. YouTube, articles, websites, purchase reviews – you name it, I’ve read or watched it. I’ve looked at comparison charts. I’ve created my own Excel spreadsheets. Honestly, at this point I just want to twirl around in a circle and buy whatever my finger points to, because my head aches and it all looks the same at this point.

I want to be able to create quality video tutorials. It’s something I’m passionate about, and it’s something I’ve dabbled in with good reception on Instagram. When I had this idea of re-launching Tickled Peach, it was always with the hope that eventually I would also launch a YouTube channel and offer makeup tutorials on the blog and on YouTube. I don’t have an expectation of being a star, but I think I have a voice, and an audience, and I want to share what I know.

But it’s become clear that my iPhone 6s will not cut it. I don’t even have the newest and fanciest model! Ha! I knew eventually I would need to get better quality equipment, and so lately I’ve been researching what some YouTubers use and what is recommended for creating quality blog photographs and video tutorials.

And the list is endless. And expensive. $3000 DSLR cameras. Ring lights, umbrella lights, reflectors. Microphones. Editing software. Backdrops. Sets. Last night as I watched yet another video titled “Equipment Every YouTuber Needs!” I started to feel discouraged. I don’t have the budget to buy everything on these lists. Even if I did, I certainly don’t know how to use what I would buy. It started to seem silly. Pointless. And I wondered if maybe I should just give up.

See, this is one of my character flaws. In my head, I shouldn’t do something if I don’t have every single thing I need to do it. I will have a goal, but I set roadblocks for myself in the form of lack of knowledge, lack of ability, lack of financial means.

I’d really love to learn how to embroider children’s clothes! But those machines are expensive, and I don’t know how to use them. I don’t even know how to sew!

I should start exercising! But I don’t have any workout clothes, and I don’t have a gym membership, and I don’t even have an tennis shoes.

I want to go back to school and finish my Master’s degree. But we don’t have the money, and I don’t have the time, and who would watch the kids while I went to school?

Jason will tell you that if it were up to me, we probably would not have children. We were married for 6 years before I got pregnant with Cooper. We had talked about the timing of starting a family, but there was always something I thought we needed. We needed to have a certain amount of money in the bank. We needed to live in a house and not an apartment. We needed to be closer to family so we would have help if we needed. We needed to wait until we were ___ years old. Jason is the one who finally had enough of my “we will do it when” and that’s how we had Cooper. And Sullivan. Sweet Poppy was a surprise, so I guess even God knew I would have found a reason we should have waited to have her.

You know what? I’m so incredibly thankful that my husband did insist. Because those three babies are the very best thing that have ever happened to me.

I originally launched Tickled Peach in 2014. I took a break in 2015 that turned into a 2 year hiatus from the blog. “Blogging is dead!” I told myself. No one would read my blog. What would I talk about? I didn’t have time. Why bother?

But the idea just wouldn’t go away. In the summer of 2015, I did a bible study, The Best Yes, by Lysa TerKeurst. I still to this day say that bible study was one of the most transforming studies I’ve ever done. In the book, she talks about how we make time for things that are really important to us. She says that sometimes when we have goals or dreams, we have to be very intentional about creating time to accomplish those things. She shared about writing her first book, and how she would carve out these little pockets in her day to work, because it mattered to her. It was her Best Yes.

As I read that book, I felt God saying “your blog is your Best Yes.”

I ignored it. Because it seemed crazy! Did God know that blogging was dead? I don’t think he got the memo that Google Reader died and a lot of blogs went with it.

That voice continued. I told you HERE about how, during a study of the book of John, the story of the disciples casting their net just blew me away. A very simple act of faith led to a huge blessing from God. They did what they were asked to do, and they were blessed for doing it.

And still I ignored that voice. I acknowledged it, sure. If you follow me on Instagram you may remember me sharing my reaction to that study, and how I felt like God was calling me to blog. That was back in April.

In June, our pastor was out of town, and our friend Ray preached the sermon one Sunday morning. Again, he referenced the disciples casting their net. “Go!” he said. “When God put something in front of you, DO IT.” After that sermon, my friend Wendy even texted me and said “hey – remember you talked about casting your net?” At that point I began to accept that this was something I could do and wanted to do. I set a goal of launching on September 1st.

And there I went, creating roadblocks in my own way. I didn’t have the right blog design. I don’t understand how to use Pinterest to promote my blog. What is SEO? How does one use affiliate links? Do I use ads? I began to make a list of all the things I needed and quickly became overwhelmed.

That’s when Satan steps in, friends. He senses your discouragement. He feels your fear. He knows you do not feel equipped. And he will magnify those feelings until you just want to give up. Because that’s what he wants! Satan wants you to walk away from that net God is telling you to cast.

It took my husband finally saying “Go! You’ll never have enough knowledge. You’ll never know every single thing you need to know. You will learn as you go, and that’s OK.” for me to actually take the leap and re-launch the blog.

Here’s the truth: there will always be a million reasons why not. You will never feel perfectly ready. You will never have a perfect body, or the exact right amount of money in the bank, or live in the perfect house, or have every bit of knowledge that you need to know. That just isn’t how life works. But I can tell you one thing – God tells you why. Even better, he tells you how.

Cast your net, he says. Jump. Go. Do.

Tickled Peach was a big leap of faith for me. I had a million reasons why I shouldn’t do this. I had one reason why I should: because God told me to. I want to have the faith of Peter, John, and the other disciples who heard some stranger on a beach say “Cast your net!” and just throw my net off the side of the boat. I want to go forth, boldly, trusting in his provision and equipment. Because he will give me every single thing I need. Maybe I don’t have every single bit of knowledge or equipment, but I have a voice. I have an audience. The rest will come at some point. I’ve got to stop being so scared of the “what ifs” and “but I needs” that I never even step foot onto the boat.

I don’t know how many of you are in the same boat right now. Maybe there is this lingering goal, or dream, or calling in the back of your mind that you are telling yourself that there is no way you can do.

Maybe you want to go back to work after staying at home.

Maybe you want to go back to school and get a degree.

Maybe you want to start a business.

Maybe you want to have a baby.

Find your why, friends. Listen to that calling. Step into that boat. Cast that net. Believe, just as I have, that if you are called to do it, you will be equipped to do it. God can see infinitely more than we ever could about our future. Trust and believe that if he has put something on your heart, there is a reason. You never know where it can lead.

Cast your net. Throw it with abandon. Know that He is the one who called you, and He will be with you every step of the way.

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